Mere Farewells

Insomniac for a number of nights and pounding of heart when I’m alone… I don’t know what has gotten into me these past days. Perhaps it’s just a result of being bummed for a number of weeks or my addiction to caffeine.

I have been thinking too much about the goodbyes that I will be making and the new chapters that I will face. Tomorrow, I will be waving adieu to my kuya who will join the OFWs in Canada.

A week from now, I will graduate from college and have to bid good bye to most of my college friends. No more shallow talks about the pink team, no more paid lakwatsa (I’m referring to fieldtrips), no more pissing encounters with kalbosaur (if you know what I mean) and more importantly no more student discounts and freebies. I will also be saying my farewell to my Korean students since I will be leaving the city in a short while.

In a matter of weeks, I will be in Pampanga joining my friends and starting our small business. I will be living there just like any grown-up adult, supporting myself and depending on no one except me, myself and I.

I guess I’m not yet ready for all of these. Or I’m just afraid of my new obligations in life. Those are my stupid reasons for my procrastination on the things that I should already be doing…my reasons for doing and talking about nothing but futile things.

Right now, I don’t know what is my point for posting this blog. Mine are just petty problems (if these can even be considered as problems). I know that there are more relevant issues in life than these but who cares.

Whew! I already sound like Chris Agrava. Thanks to Kule for influencing me on how I should express myself. Good if this blog will make me look intellectually sophisticated but most probably the readers will find me as an insane and shallow woman.


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